7008.) I always end up pulling away from anyone I go out with. I never mean to, it just happens. My relationships always start off as friendships. We start to like each other, we flirt some more, then we go out, and BAM, it’s gone. I never like them as much as I think I will. Then we just grow further apart, they break up with me because I feel bad if I break up with them because it’s my fault that the relationship goes wrong, so WHEN they break up with me, I’m glad. And I feel like shit about it. I just feel like such a rubbish person.
I am a thinker, not a writer.
My mind is overflowing with hundreds of thoughts and ideas everyday. I think its almost genius sometimes. But whenever I try to write it down, the way my words interpret it makes me disappointed. Everything just seems so much better in my head.
6767.) You can use me, abuse me, call me names, spread shit about me, push me around and knock me down. But I will never lower myself to your level. Ever. When I don’t fight back, it’s not because I’m weak, it’s because I’m stronger than you will ever be. I’ll survive, with my pride, integrity and the knowledge that I am the best person I can be. I won’t hurt you to justify my own pain. I’m better than that. So when you’re older, more mature and ridden with sadness and guilt, just know that I’ll be happy, because I know that seeing me smile pisses you off more than anything. Karma is a beautiful thing.
